Unknown to me
Where would I find her?
In the crowd, in the silence
My eyes has searched through all
But, she is still unknown, to me

Is that you?
The one that I long for
This heart excites, shout loud
Happiest moment, brightest day
It comes, then it goes…

Can’t you stay here?
Relentless night, darker sky
Trembling, I wonder why…
Where did my light go?
Guess… Life is both up and down

Unknown to me
Where would I find her?
Excitement has left me behind
Happiness betrays me
In the end, she is still unknown

In the blackout night
She, the one besides me
One that has been with me, always
As bright as the day
Enlighten my lonely night

In the darkness, you shine brighter
True Peace…

Now, the night looks like the day
Night or day, she is with me
Joy never again leave me
My heart find its rest


A promise I hold
For a saviour, a deliverer
To free the oppressed and afflicted
Let the world find its hope

Saviour of my soul
To our world humbly you came
Rejected, hated, forsaken
You shed blood on calvary

What is human that worth of your life?
That you blesses us and our children?
By love and obedience you bear our sin
We are forgiven

The lost find a way home
The broken once again see hope
O how grace has humbled me
Grace has shown me the way

My heart rejoices
For the hope of glory has come
My eyes gaze upon your wonder
Poured like a waterfall
The unending love of the Father

The fullness in Christ
Hope of purity and holiness
The law was given through Moses
But grace and truth came through Jesus Christ

Help Me

Why am I like this?
Why am I hurting someone I love?
Why do I make my love cry?
Please, stop…

I hate every single thought on my mind
I hate I could not do what I suppose to do
I hate I could not be stronger
I hate me…

Help me, I cried
Someone please, take me out of myself
Shut my mind, please
For with it I killed many

Save me from myself! Somebody!
Take me out from evil beyond measure
With it I will never love
With it I will destroy

Heal me… Give a new heart


Crying is not meant to be alone
Laughing is not meant to be alone
Life is not meant to be alone
They are to be shared

Who is going to tell me to be brave?
Who will rebuke me of my wrongs?
Who will remind me of who I am?
Who is going to shed tears with me?
Who will listen to my silliest story?
Who will challenge me?
Who will share my joy?

Not many I have
Couples, but precious
Dark valleys and nights
They are as bright as day

People come, people go
Alone in the midst of crowd
Distance isn’t judged by place
But heart

There are struggles, there are hopes
My weaknesses no longer frightening
Coz for them, we have each other
While holding hands, we have power
To know that we are not alone
We are overcomer!

What a face I let them see
Cheerful smile I hope it matters
Deepest inside, no one knows
It won’t matter, even it reveals

How wonderful it is
To have someone beside you
How relief it is
To know someone love you despite of who you are
How fulfilling it is
To know someone is there for you
A treasure that will never be replaced



Righteousness I pursue
Holy life I know
The law is my mirror
Desire to give my all to please Him
Failure one after another
Frustation is what’s left
I know I love You
You know it God

Tho you call me Your son
I work out to gain your pleasure
Tho I call You my Father
I look for reward on everything I do
When I do what is right
I come to You with confident
When I do wrong
I have fear to see You
I am a son by title, not by heart
Lord, forgive me for this slave mentality.

I redeemed you not for ministry
I redeemed you for relationship
You’re no longer slave
You are a son to Me
You are My pleasure
And I am Your reward
Bondage of sin has been broken
And law has lost its power upon you
I love you not for what you’ve done
My love is unconditional
You are born of Me, belong to Me
Come to Me, My beloved son

Failure one after another
In my weakness I see His grace
There is no fear in love
I have been accepted
Now my life is Yours
I live only to adore You, Father

Mystery of Love

I want to love you
But I can’t
I thought I love you
But I did not know what love is

I wish I do what I suppose to do
But I do the opposite
You are not number one
Myself is
Enjoy anything else but you
Turn my back on you
Busy with my own things
Overwhelm myself with the world without you
I am a mess…
Someone, please help me from myself!

You keep me in your heart
Engraved me in the palm of your hand
Rejoice over me with gladness
Wrap me with mercy and grace
You forgive me
Died for me
You love me till the end

This undeserved being
A total wretch come from the dust
Who am I Lord?
That the Holy God, the Lord of universe
Love me this much

You show me true love at the cross
Receive me as whole
You died so that this sinful hopeless soul can live on
Surround me with your presence
Fills me with your glory
You call me your child

Until now
You always are the pursuer
Your love is real
Never give up on me, Father
Love me…

Psalm 20:4 Cross Reference

Psalm 20:4 can be confusing if we interpret it out of its context. It can sound like a selfish statement. So, below is the list of verses in the bible which are related to Psalm 20:4, so it can give us more understanding about its context.

Psalm 20:4 May he grant you your heart’s desire and fulfill all your plans!

Psalm 21:2 You have given him his heart’s desire and have not withheld the request of his lips.

Psalm 145:19 He fulfills the desire of those who fear him; he also hears their cry and saves them.

Matthew 21:22 And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith.

Proverbs 11:23 The desire of the righteous ends only in good; the expectation of the wicked in wrath.

1 John 5:14-15 And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us. And if we know that he hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of him.

John 16:23 In that day you will ask nothing of me. Truly, truly, I say to you, whatever you ask of the Father in my name, he will give it to you.

Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Romans 8:27-28 And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.



Disciplines of The Almighty

Today, I’m reading the book of Job in the bible. I learnt that God’s discipline might be painful and seems unbearable. But God is faithful, He inflicts pain but also heals us, so we might learn new things through this uncomfortable experience. Below is a writing inspired by book of Job.

Flying like a young sparrow
Rise and fall
Like a gold in the burning fire
Melt to purity

Disciplines are tough
Take away comfort, deny self will
Into the calamity one may enter
All the strength is broken

One will question towards the Creator
He who despise the disciplines of the Almighty
But blessed are those who fear Him
For He inflicts pain, but gives relief
He wounds, but His hands heal

To know how fragile the mortals are
Blessed are those whose life is in the hand of God
The fools lean their back on the spider web
But those whom He loves will be broken
So that to Him alone every life trusts

He Rescues Me

Last Sunday Service was amazing. I learnt how Holy Spirit keeps praying and intercedes for us every single time, knowing our weaknesses and pray for our good. Even in the darkest moment of my life, when I don’t even have strength to pray for my soul is so weary, God is always my best friend. Holy Spirit is my true helper, He carries me along and rescues me when I am unable to walk. Despite all my weaknesses, His love endures. This is how this lyric below came out.

Oh.. Holy Ghost, He is faithful
Never once my life separated from His sight
My intercessor, my helper in times of need
He knows my every weaknesses

Oh.. My God, Whose love endures forever
Never once He loses His tight holding hand
Knowing that He love me despite my flaws
I rejoice for His graceful love

All my burdens I humbly surrender now
Every struggles, pain, and all my wrongs
For I know in Him I will find my rest
My God is the only source of my strength

Even in the darkest pit I ever be
Times when I cant even say my prayer
My God is still there by my side
With His mighty hands He carries me…
He rescues me…

Courage to Dream

Alone at the floor of gold and silver
A place I’ve known best, I’ve stayed for long
All the beauty, charming pearl and everything
Walls without window or doors, white and plain

The thirst cannot stop, wanting more and more
What’s the meaning of all rich when there’s no dream
A jail in my heart, a palace of comfort
That swaps away the courage to dream

Just wanna stay, I have everything
No further steps, all things are alright
No more mistakes, no more failure
Do not mess, life is perfect now
Well the truth is I’m losing everything

Let me out of here, I am running to you
Fear that held me back will never again
Break the wall, open me up to a whole new world
And there I see my dream

Leave everything back, I don’t care
Emptiness inside changed to hope
My heart is burning just for you
For now I have the courage to dream